Wow a NYE I will never forget...

Hey guys,

I have been wonderful lately and things are so much better and I am moving on and forgetting about everything in my past well at least I am trying to anyway lol that is all I can do. Anyway let me tell you about the fun time I have been having and let me tell ya it feels so good to get out!

I went out fri and sat to the Mule(local bar here in Sussex) and it was awesome the 1st night I just played pool and hung out with Will and Rob and just had a fun time. The second night I went out with Rob, Minda and Kassie and met up with Steve Corey and Trevor we didn't talk much though and Corey and Trevor left early so Steve hung out with us girls and Minda left early too so we went on the dance floor and even Rob and Steve danced with Kassie and I it was just a blast!!

On Monday night the Mule was throwing a NYE party so I went to that with Kassie and Steve, Steve picked us up at Kassie's place and then from her place we went to Trevor's for about a half an hour and then to the Mule we headed off to. We got there and they had pizza and snacks for free and I thought that was awesome. I didn't eat though and either did Kassie just the guys did and AJ was there too but I thought he was working that night. Trevor met up with us after wards and we all played pool well besides Kassie no way was she playing lol. It was fun and later on we went on the dance floor and danced and had a blast Trevor even joined us and he doesn't dance well then again either do I funny how that is but I danced that night lol we all did. It was funny because Trevor kept hip bumping me into the speaker and he was a bit drunk so he was falling on me alot too but it was all good and alot of fun. At the end of it everyone was wasted besides me I didn't drink lol and just having the time of their lives!! Trevor and I slow danced the last song and it made me sad thinking I havn't done that since high school lol crazy that was many years ago:( but over all it was a good night and we all had fun spending NYE together.

Alexis is doing wonderful she is walking and talking now more than ever and growing up wayyyy to fast she will be 15 months old on the 10th hard to believe my baby being that old already lol. I love her more and more each day and I plan on bettering my life for her and so I can be a great mom to her and I try and somedays are rough, but we get through them.

I don't talk to Jon or Tami at all anymore just not worth my time I am so over him and I really don't care about him anymore he is missing so many new things with Alexis and that is his choice. I don't bother with it anymore he is the one missing out not me.

As you can tell I am much happier yes the nights are still lonely but whatever I get through them and will continue to do so. I think when I am actually ready to start a relationship again then it will be ok and so will I and I will make this one work the best I can. My favorite saying is everything happens for a reason and well I really believe that now it just took long enough for me to see it that is all.

Anyway it is sooo past my bedtime so I am going to stop writing now but I just wanted to add one thing before I go I so LOVE my contacts they are making me feel so much better about myself and that is a good thing. Anyway that is all will update later.

G2G Bye!