Good to bad:(...

Hey guys,

Well alot has happened once again... I thought I was living the perfect life well I was wrong yet again wow I am so bad at being someone girlfriends I guess. Anyway I will explain what has been going on.

Well this past weekend Jamie was here I love it when he comes over and me just being able to see him. Things were good so I thought but now I really don't know. He was sick and not feeling the greatest and my house was way too hot for him I am sorry for that. Other than that we had alot of deep convos and it was good. He went home on Sunday and I went to SJ to see him for a bit and then stayed with Lisa and Noah, Lexie and I did it was a good night. Alexis went to bed no problem so I was happy about that lol. I didn't sleep very much bc I was worried about Jamie and was hoping he was ok. He has Pneumonia and is really sick I feel so bad for him. Well today now I am at Lisa's and he textes me that he is scared and nervous and needs to make arrangements and I am like ok what is wrong and this is where he tells me that he needs time to think and wants to be alone and he is sorry for the way he feels. Right there I started crying it hurt to hear that bc I have heard it before I guess and I really liked and loved Jamie and honestly it hurt worst than what Jon did to me. Anyway I leave Lisa's and go back home to find he changed his and mine relationship status and that is when reality really kicked in and all I have been doing is sitting here crying it just hurts my heart feels broken all over again it is really hard to explain just like it is hard to explain the way he made me feel. Anyway so yeah I guess that is what happened between Jamie and I and I can honestly say I miss him I really do. Anyway maybe when he finds himself than maybe there will be a Jamie and Rebekah who knows right?

Alexis is doing great and had fun this weekend with Jamie and I and she had fun at Lisa's as well. I have finally got things in order when it comes to her so I am pleased with that I have to take a walk down memory lane and I am not ready to do that but I have to for my baby girl so I will and Jamie said he will be there to support me so that helps alot. She is growing and teething and running now but she trips alot it is funny lol.

Anyway I know this one is pretty short but I just don't feel up to writting alot tonight. Might go to bed and try to get some sleep not sure if that will happen or not. Anyway I will keep you guys updated as much as possible when ever that may be lol.

G2G Bye!