Sick & Worried

Hey guys,

I seem to feel so sick all the time for some reason it is an awful feeling and I wish I knew what was wrong with my body but I don't.

I just don't feel myself and I get headaches I have never gotton headaches before so I really don't know what is up with that and lately there have been nights that I can't seem to breathe but that could be my asthma acting up again because the colder weather is coming.

I am scared that I will have Alexis and stop breathing in the night it has happen before and at least I had John there because I remember there was one night that I was talking to him on the phone and he knew I was having trouble breathing well the phone on my end went silent and when I came too him and his parents were on their way to get me and he wanted me to go to the hospital but I didn't it was just a rough night. What am I gonna do I don't like to be by myself especially at night. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with even my parents divorcing wasn't as bad as this in my opinion.

Anyway I hope me getting headaches and feeling sick all the time is normal if not than I don't know but it could be just stress as well because trying to find a place for Alexis and I to live and yet it has to be in town because I don't have my licence and won't have them for awhile because the only person willing to let me drive is John thank god my own parents won't let me drive unless I get my own insurance well on top of everything else I won't have the money to do that and I think that is also stressing me out.

I think that once I get my life straightened out and get back on my feet that maybe then I will start to feel better I hope. I have to feel better I can't take care of Alexis when I feel like this I really can't so all I need to do now is concentrate on feeling better for Alexis because I love her and she is the only one I have left, sad to say but it is true.

G2G bye!