Ya I am stupid...

Hey guys,

Well the reason why I say this is because I have had some ups and downs and things have been kinda bad lately. Let me explain what I mean and then you guys can understand just exactly what have been going on.

First of all Tami asked me to stop calling and texting Jon so I have done that unless he textes me or calls me and then I am not going to be rude and ignore him, so ya I respected that and listened to her but the other day Jon texted me and asked me for the money for the jeep and well I said no and aparently he got all pissy and cranky so then Tami comes on msn and messages me and well it did not go good and I found out alot of lies and everything she told me hurt me so bad and no one seems to understand that.

Anyway I confronted Jon about it and he said that he didn't say anything and well I don't know what to believe anymore I really don't. I said no to him and then his parents told me that I should give him the money and that way he gets to keep his jeep so I was stupid and did that and well since he gotton the money I havn't heard from him at all and so there for he just used me yet again, anyway that is how I feel.

Alexis is almost 14 months old and I can't believe it where has the time gone? She still isn't walking but talking lots more and learning lots more things she is such a smart little girl and I love her to pieces. I can and cannot wait for xmas because I don't want to be alone but on the other hand I can't wait to wake my baby girl bright and early and all that fun stuff.

Anyway I have been talking to an old ex boyfriend of mine and he has been wonderful no other words for it. I mean this guy is willing to give up his wonderful life to make me happy I think that is just wrong and I really don't want Andrew doing that just for me. He told me he has often thought about me but knew I was with Jon and thought I was happy well I was happy but Jon wasn't and there is really nothing I can do about that but as long as you all know I did try and that is really all I could have done. I would give me life to Jon he just doesn't see it oh well that is over with there will never be a Jon and Rebekah again.

That is all for now I will write when I can I am busy with my daughter alot and she is my world and my everything just like her daddy was.

G2G Bye!