Sunday, October 14, 2007

I don't know what to do or what to think anymore...

Hey guys,

I know I haven't posted in a while but I have been extremly busy with the house and the wedding it has been insane! The insanlness is finally starting to settle down now.

The house is coming along good we should be able to move in by Christmas so we are hoping anyway. Mom and Clarence hired a good hard working crew to work on their house because they can't do it for they are going back to work. I can't wait to move and start fresh see John and I won't have any memories at the new place so I think that will help me heal from everything I have been through and still going through.......

Anyway it is 2:30am and my 1 year old just went to sleep thank god but her mommy needs sleep right now will continue you in the morning when I wake up I promise!!!!!!!!

I did continue last night like promised but it didn't save so here I go again. I will try to think about what I wrote about last night.

The wedding was awesome and I had such a fun time it was just plain great! I have never had so much fun in my life. We arrived there at 4:00pm with mom and mom's maid of honor(Amanda) and then Alexis Jess and me all went inside and when we walked in Peirce was there with some of John's family. I asked Peirce to come and he did so that meant alot because alot of guys don't like going to weddings. Alexis was dressed up and looked so pretty but when doesn't she lol. She was so good during the wedding and barely said anything basically to sum it up she was on her very best behaviour and did fine for a 1 year old. After the wedding we all ate omg the food was amazing and we still have lots left over lol. Then it was time for ppl to get outside and relax while we were cleaning up from the reception. Jess Peirce and I stayed outside quite a bit and Diane and Elmer(John's parents) asked me if they could take Alexis for the night and I thought ya that would be good so that she could go to bed at a half decent time because I knew we were going to be there untill the end. So they took her home with them and then we went outside again and just talked and played tag it was fun, although I could never tell who was it lol but it was all good. Anyway we stayed outside untill Peirce had to leave at 8:30pm because he had to be at work by 9pm so anyway after he left we back inside and started dancing the night away which by the way we did we didn't stop we just kept dancing. Mom and Clarence had a blast too it was all country music and it was such a wicked ass time. I am happy to see my mom happy and it is sweet how they call each other husband and wife now too cute for sure! Anyway that is all over with now and I just want to thank Peirce and Jess for coming with me you 2 are the bestest friends that I could ever ask for thanks for being there with me and for me through the thick and the thin I know lately it has been thickness but I am hoping that will change soon. Once again though thankyou!!!!

Alexis is doing fine and she is almost walking now that is just crazy to think of I miss my baby that little helpless one that we brought home over a year ago now it saddens me to think of all those times and how small she used to be. She will be going for her needles tomorrow I am scared to death I hate needles with a passion but she doesn't so that is good, that she isn't like me her mommy lol. I decided to try something new last night and not bath her and she was asleep by 10:00pm, not something that happens often that is for sure. I am going to try that again tonight to make sure it wasn't just a fluke.

That is all for now oh Jess and Art are going out again on Friday so that is exciting I am so happy for her. Peirce and I were invited to her house for a pizza party and I really want to go. I am not sure what Peirce is doing whether or not he is going but if he does than that is great and if he doesn't then there is always a next time right.

G2G Bye!

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