Update on everyone and everything...

Hey guys,

Well I am just in such a good mood and have been lately it is a really nice feeling, something I havn't felt in a long time. Everyone says that things happen for a reason and I think I am now finding out what that reason is and it is making perfect sense.

I am living my life the way it should be lived I am not saying I don't have my down days because there are times when I do but what I am saying is that I am finally moving on and going forward with my life. Living my life the way it should be lived and not I shouldn't care what people say or think anymore.

I did go out with Art on friday night and well I just don't feel that "click" that you usually have so that isn't going to work out between us but on the plus side Jessica likes him alot and she actually asked me permission to go with him why I am still not sure yet, but I was more than happy and thrilled for her someday I will find Mr. Right someday just not today and really I think that is ok. Jess is trying to convince me to go out with this guy that I have known for 7 years but I am still not sure yet I just found out that he doesn't believe in marriage why I don't know but that really bugs me because I want to have that day that it is all about me and you know I want to experience the married life. That is a big problem for if him and I would ever be together because that is important to me to be married not just common-law. I have done that and look where it got me, single lol because there in no commintment at least with a marriage there is one and it is a good thing and hopefully means the same to me as it does to that Mr. Right I hope.

Anyway I miss my baby girl alot but she is with her father and that is a good thing, but it is still hard on me that is for sure. I know she is feeling better so I am happy about that she was some sick for a little while so I am exscatic that she is so much better. I love Alexis I love being with her and just holding her. I don't know where the year has gone I really don't, it seems just like yesterday she was born and I will always remember the look on her father's face how proud he was what happened to that? What happened to what we used to have? Anyway I always seem to find myself depressed when I take the time to think about shit why do I do this to myself I am just hurting myself once again.

I have been working on our new house quite a bit and I love doing it. It is coming right along and tomorrow morning I will be helping my parents put on the roof so that is very exciting. They will be married next weekend and I will finally have an official step dad so that is wonderful too. I am more than lucky to have a wonderful mom and dad and now a step father some people don't get that lucky, but I did.

Anyways that is all for now so I will try to update more often when I have the time that is. I have been extremely busy with the house and the wedding but it will slow back down after everything is done.

G2G Bye!