I miss you...

Hey guys,

This one is for John...

I miss you

I miss everything about you, the way you hold me the way you loved me the way you kissed me, the way you gave me the silent treatment when you were mad at me which drove me bonkers lol.

I even miss the time you got mad at me and knocked out my front tooth I was 5 months pregnant but see I miss all the good and bad things about you call me crazy call me whatever but I miss you!

I just want you back more than anything I really don't understand why you left me and when I asked you all you tell me was you were stupid and well that isn't answer and doesn't help me out any. Can't you see that I screwed up and I know that now but I am willing to fix any problem you had with me and I want to try to make things work for Alexis please know this John that I am sorry!!

I love you and I just want you to hold me close to you again and that is all I want I just want you hun more than anything in this world I asked god everyday why he has done such a horriable thing everyday I pray and asked him this and well I still havn't gotton any answers so I am not sure what this all means.

When I asked you if we would ever have another chance you tell me to give you time and well I really need to know soon because everyone deserves a second chance and well I havn't gotton mine yet.

Anyway baby I just wanted you to know how much I miss you and love you and just want to be with you remember our song always.....In a real love!!!!

I wrote this blog to John and even though he may never read it I just wanted to get it off my mind but I really do miss him and care about him alot and I want him to know that what I have been through has not been easy but I am dealing with it the best way I know how to. That is all I have for now so I will stop typing for the night!

G2G Bye!