A happy day...

Hey guys,

Today has been great and just plain wonderful! It feels so good to say that just because of all the shit I have been through lately it was nice to have a break from all the bad memories and today I concentrated on the good memories that we shared and that seemed to help alot. I must say I had a busy non stop day though I am finally winding down now and trying desperately to get Alexis to sleep...hopefully she crashes soon that would be great!

Well I am on a new med it is called Effexcer so hopefully even though as my Doctor pointed out I am still in this situation as much as I don't want to be I have to be for now. Anyway I looked at him today and said I just want to be happy again and feel the way I did when I was with John. He said he couldn't tell me that this was going to work so he is only trying it and he is increasing the dosage slowly so a week at a time. I took my first 1 today so we will see how that goes.

Well anyway I will now tell you why I had such a good day...I woke up and got ready showered and headed for town then I went and met John's parents at least they still like me that helps alot knowing I will always have their support and that they will always be there for me. Anyway I did some running around with them. I got my hair cut and styled so that was nice and my hair feels so soft now so that is great. I walked to meet up with his parents again and off I went to do some more running around and then I had my doctor's appt which didn't go the way I wanted it to but hopefully I am back to normal very soon and before I know it. After that I went and picked up my perscription and went back to the Mackays so that wasn't too bad I didn't want to be there but I had to be so I could feed Alexis and take care of her and Amanda was coming to get me in a couple of hours so it wasn't to bad. John was amazingly nice to me and that felt so good and it reminded me of old times and all I thought about was the good ones I left the bad ones behind this time. I went and bought them sugar because they had none so that was awesome and they were happy about that one. I didn't realize how expensive sugar was untill you have to buy it lol.

Anyway it has just been a wonder day and I hope are more to follow it because that would be great! I will write more but right now I am off to bed because Alexis FINALLY went to sleep so that is great and when she is asleep that means her mommy can sleep.

G2G Bye!