Hey Guys,
Well today has been horribale for me nothing went right at all, why I don't know it just didn't.
I feel so empty there is no other words to explain it but empty I was diagnosed with depression today and then to have ppl say that I can control it without meds is not true my doctor wouldn't have given to me if he thought other wise. Alexis needs to go in for blood work tomorrow there is something wrong with her, so they are going to run tests and see how that goes.
I feel so alone and I can't help the way I feel all I know it is an awful feeling and I want it all to go away for good. I just wish I had that good feeling I had before everything went wrong...I just want to go up to John and hug him I miss his hugs I miss everything about him but that doesn't matter any more because he doesn't miss me.
Anyway I am in tears tonight and don't feel like writing anymore so have a good night.
G2G Bye!
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Bekka, after what you've been put through I'm not surprised your on anti-depressents now. Don't worry, I asked mom about the whole always tired and cranky thing, and mom says she went to the doctor for me to and they did all these tests and blood work for me I was about maybe 10 months old - 13 months old, not really sure, but it turned out to be just normal teething, my teeth were just coming in harder then usual. The pain made it so i guess I didn't get any rest when I slept. and I was always upset and cranky. So I think thats the thing with Alexis now.
And don't worry I have a strong believe that if you love someone enough they'll come back to you. Like my parents my dad lived with his girlfriend for like 2 years, then he went back to mom and they've been together ever since. And they started dating when mom was 15 years old. Anyway the point of this is to tell you don't give up, and just try and relax a bit. How bout tomarrow, I'll call ya as soon as I get off work and me and you go for a walk and get some ica ma cream? Sound groovy? Let me know.
Oh and I can bring pictures with me too, I got like hundreds of you and Lexie, lol!!!!!
But we'll do them when we have the house to our selves, or its just Diane or Elmer home. K, I'll leave ya alone. Nite!
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