A rough night...

Hey guys,

Well last night it wasn't easy. I was so upset and got thinking about life and the way it was and the way it went and even though I want to get all these thoughts out of my head I can't.......I have tried. I hear certain songs and then comes the tears so I find myself crying alot and my heart is hurting more than ever I just wish he would come over and give me a hug because that is what I need right now just for him to hug me and for me to stop holding on.

Last night Alexis had a rough night the poor baby was teething so bad and she just didn't want to do anything besides cry and she was so upset and in so much pain I feel so bad for her and there was nothing I could do, besides hold her till she went to sleep. She finally went to sleep and stayed asleep and today when she woke up she has a little tooth poking through so that is exciting.

Well I go see my family doctor on the 27th of this month because he put me on anti depressants but I really don't think they are doing what they are susposed to do besides they help me sleep which is good but I still have sucidal thoughts running through my head and awful scary dreams that I will wake up and find myself crying. Anyway so yah I need to get my body and myself back to normal, so I am going to see what he says when I go see him.

Anyway Alexis needs to be fed it's her lunch time!

G2G Bye!