Made up my mind...

Hey guys,

Well I have been trying not to think about all the bad things that have gone wrong in my life and I am not doing too bad with that one right now. I am currently working on my resume and if anything is frsuterating me it is that for sure!

I have finally made up my mind that I am NOT paying John's jeep payment when it is due next month I just can't do it and be hurt again. I mean if we were together again then yes I would do it for sure and wouldn't think twice about it, but we are not together and I always wind up getting hurt in the end and that isn't fair to me, and I really just can't do that anymore. I am not trying to be mean and I have thought about it alot and all I really can do is wait and sees what happens in the next week or so.

I have had a pretty good day it hasn't been that exciting but it hasn't been bad either. I got up at 11ish(oh trust me my day started at 3:30am) That is when Alexis decided it was time to get up and play(I had other ideas) but anyway she finally went back to sleep and it was all good. John;s mom called so she came and picked up Alexis and me and we headed into town and that is where I did some running around and got things done so I was pleased about that. I went for a walk and tried out the new stroller I love it!! Then I headed back to John's and his gf was just walking through the door and off he went down stairs with her and he didn't even say good bye to Alexis I felt bad for her. I went and got my eye brows waxed and then came back home and noone was here so I was a bit lonely and I really do hate that feeling. I gave Alexis a bath and worked on my resume and well I gave up on that idea and hired someone to help me with it(thanks Lisa!) and then my sister took Alexis and walked around with her for an hour while I could get this done(thanks Amanda!) so that was nice of her and she also got to spend some time with her neice so that was good. Well my resume is done and I am happy for that so now I am off to find a job tomorrow.

Well that is right I have been thinking about going back to work John's mom said she would babysit for me and I figure that me working would be a good thing and that way I can provide for my daughter and not be so fiancially stressed all the time. I am applying to a few places tomorrow and I hope to hear back from them soon. I am really excited about going back to work because I love working and I am hoping I will meet new ppl so that is what I am looking forward too.

Anyway it is getting late and if Alexis does what she did last night then I am in trouble and I also have to be up really early tomorrow morning so I better be getting to bed. I will update tomorrow hopefully on how the job hunting went.

G2G Bye!