Hey guys,
Well alot has happened once again... I thought I was living the perfect life well I was wrong yet again wow I am so bad at being someone girlfriends I guess. Anyway I will explain what has been going on.
Well this past weekend Jamie was here I love it when he comes over and me just being able to see him. Things were good so I thought but now I really don't know. He was sick and not feeling the greatest and my house was way too hot for him I am sorry for that. Other than that we had alot of deep convos and it was good. He went home on Sunday and I went to SJ to see him for a bit and then stayed with Lisa and Noah, Lexie and I did it was a good night. Alexis went to bed no problem so I was happy about that lol. I didn't sleep very much bc I was worried about Jamie and was hoping he was ok. He has Pneumonia and is really sick I feel so bad for him. Well today now I am at Lisa's and he textes me that he is scared and nervous and needs to make arrangements and I am like ok what is wrong and this is where he tells me that he needs time to think and wants to be alone and he is sorry for the way he feels. Right there I started crying it hurt to hear that bc I have heard it before I guess and I really liked and loved Jamie and honestly it hurt worst than what Jon did to me. Anyway I leave Lisa's and go back home to find he changed his and mine relationship status and that is when reality really kicked in and all I have been doing is sitting here crying it just hurts my heart feels broken all over again it is really hard to explain just like it is hard to explain the way he made me feel. Anyway so yeah I guess that is what happened between Jamie and I and I can honestly say I miss him I really do. Anyway maybe when he finds himself than maybe there will be a Jamie and Rebekah who knows right?
Alexis is doing great and had fun this weekend with Jamie and I and she had fun at Lisa's as well. I have finally got things in order when it comes to her so I am pleased with that I have to take a walk down memory lane and I am not ready to do that but I have to for my baby girl so I will and Jamie said he will be there to support me so that helps alot. She is growing and teething and running now but she trips alot it is funny lol.
Anyway I know this one is pretty short but I just don't feel up to writting alot tonight. Might go to bed and try to get some sleep not sure if that will happen or not. Anyway I will keep you guys updated as much as possible when ever that may be lol.
G2G Bye!
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Thursday, February 14, 2008
WOW he amazes me everyday...
Hey guys,
Well let me tell you all about how I am have been doing it will literally blow you away with the news I have... Lets see what all is new well I am still with Jamie and we have had some pretty good weekends let me tell you. Alexis' father has agreed to sign off his rights to her. Jamie and I have talked about alot of serious things. Alexis is doing wonderful she learns something new everyday I love that little baby girl with all my heart. L:ast I am going to say is my tealeaf reading is coming true!!!
Ok here is how I am going to start some of the things that Jamie and I have done on the weekends have been...
1) go to Landon's Bday party it was great and Jamie was amazing with Alexis and helped me with her when I didn't even asked him too he just did it bc he wanted to.
2) we have talked alot that is all we do, but it is helping us with our relationship bc it is how we get to know each other.
3) we layed on the trampoline for hours one night and looked at the stars, holding each other close and talking and that was intimate right there bc being so close to him never felt so right in my life.
4) we have worked on the house and just hung around here for some of the days, whatever we do though it doesn't matter to me as long I am with him.
So we have had some pretty good weekends together and even though he lives in Saint John(SJ) I miss him so much it is so hard to explain. Last Saturday night we went to the Mule and he had 5 beer and of course I didn't drink lol. We played pool with Kim and Rob(they kicked our asses) and then I went to dance with Kassie and Jamie joined in on the fun and well I ended up dirty dancing with him and having a great time it was a fun night and that fun continued when we came home from the bar as well. Jamie and I have had some pretty deep convos and they have been amazing and so heart filling. I can honestly say that I have come to relaize that I didn't love Jon well I did but not in the same way I love Jamie. It is hard to explain in words but he is so much better than Jon and treats me and Lexie like gold. He told me last night that Lexie and I are angels sent from god to him that was the most sweetest thing someone could ever have said to me. Anyway I could go on and on about how wonderful he is but I won't he is just seriously the best that has EVER happened to me right along with my daughter.
Talking about my daughter she is doing awesome and getting so big and she makes me proud everyday. She is 16 months old now and walking all the time almost running, she is growing out of all her clothes time to go shopping again soon for her lol. Alexis is talking and saying lots of words, she talks to Jamie everyday on the phone and just loves to tell him stories it is cute.
Well I can honestly say that I found my tealeaf guy(Jamie) and that the things that the lady had told me and Jess about what would start happening within the next 7 months well right now it has been 6 months and so many things on that peice of paper are coming true it is scary really when you stop to think about it all that is taking place. All I have to say is thanks Jess for taking me that was an awesome experience!!
Well I am off to do some laundry and then me and Lexie are going to spend the day with Jamie and I can't wait I miss him so much when he is not here with me but I know things will be ok and normal in a few months, untill then I just have to be patient(easier said than done) but I will continue to work on that. I will write when I can.
G2G Bye!
Well let me tell you all about how I am have been doing it will literally blow you away with the news I have... Lets see what all is new well I am still with Jamie and we have had some pretty good weekends let me tell you. Alexis' father has agreed to sign off his rights to her. Jamie and I have talked about alot of serious things. Alexis is doing wonderful she learns something new everyday I love that little baby girl with all my heart. L:ast I am going to say is my tealeaf reading is coming true!!!
Ok here is how I am going to start some of the things that Jamie and I have done on the weekends have been...
1) go to Landon's Bday party it was great and Jamie was amazing with Alexis and helped me with her when I didn't even asked him too he just did it bc he wanted to.
2) we have talked alot that is all we do, but it is helping us with our relationship bc it is how we get to know each other.
3) we layed on the trampoline for hours one night and looked at the stars, holding each other close and talking and that was intimate right there bc being so close to him never felt so right in my life.
4) we have worked on the house and just hung around here for some of the days, whatever we do though it doesn't matter to me as long I am with him.
So we have had some pretty good weekends together and even though he lives in Saint John(SJ) I miss him so much it is so hard to explain. Last Saturday night we went to the Mule and he had 5 beer and of course I didn't drink lol. We played pool with Kim and Rob(they kicked our asses) and then I went to dance with Kassie and Jamie joined in on the fun and well I ended up dirty dancing with him and having a great time it was a fun night and that fun continued when we came home from the bar as well. Jamie and I have had some pretty deep convos and they have been amazing and so heart filling. I can honestly say that I have come to relaize that I didn't love Jon well I did but not in the same way I love Jamie. It is hard to explain in words but he is so much better than Jon and treats me and Lexie like gold. He told me last night that Lexie and I are angels sent from god to him that was the most sweetest thing someone could ever have said to me. Anyway I could go on and on about how wonderful he is but I won't he is just seriously the best that has EVER happened to me right along with my daughter.
Talking about my daughter she is doing awesome and getting so big and she makes me proud everyday. She is 16 months old now and walking all the time almost running, she is growing out of all her clothes time to go shopping again soon for her lol. Alexis is talking and saying lots of words, she talks to Jamie everyday on the phone and just loves to tell him stories it is cute.
Well I can honestly say that I found my tealeaf guy(Jamie) and that the things that the lady had told me and Jess about what would start happening within the next 7 months well right now it has been 6 months and so many things on that peice of paper are coming true it is scary really when you stop to think about it all that is taking place. All I have to say is thanks Jess for taking me that was an awesome experience!!
Well I am off to do some laundry and then me and Lexie are going to spend the day with Jamie and I can't wait I miss him so much when he is not here with me but I know things will be ok and normal in a few months, untill then I just have to be patient(easier said than done) but I will continue to work on that. I will write when I can.
G2G Bye!
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