Friday, August 14, 2009

Hey guys,

Umm well where do I start? Lets see??? So many changes have taken place and they are not for the best that is for sure!!....

Lets see I am still in school, living in Saint John, my little girl is almost 3 and doing really good. She is still in daycare and loving it like every minute of it. Potty training Alexis has been challenging but we are finally getting somewhere with it. I still can't believe that Alexis will be 3 on October 10th.

The wonderful guy I was with... PJ well he didn't want to be with me I guess he has alot going on and a relationship is not what he needs to concentrate on he needs to get his life straighten out and then who knows what will happen after that bc I can honestly say I don't. I miss him I really do he was the one I loved and well still do and I think I always will. I am just heartbroken and crushed lately.

Well I really do not do well with changes and lately there has been more than enough and I am tired of it I really am.... there are changes with school, changes with my financial situation and yup things just keep getting worse instead of better and I wanted it to stop I really do... I want things to go back to the way things are and I really do I just want my old life back. I just want things right again and I want to be happy again!!!!

I moved about 2 weeks ago now and I like my location of my new place, but hate my apartment as it stands right now once the work gets done it won't be all that bad I hope...

Anyway that is all for now, I don't have net or anything like that right now so that makes things hard to update on this...

G2G Bye!!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Update as of Feb 5th

Hey guys,

Just thought I would write an update on how things are going with me and my family...

Well things with me have been up and down I have been sick for quite awhile and no one knows why yet... they have done tons of tests and I am sure there are more to come. PJ has been a great support team hes been there with me through it all, held me when they were jabbing me with needles, has tears in his eyes when they were making me scream from the pain, wishing he could take it all away. I am hoping they will find out soon what is wrong with me.

PJ and I have had our disagreements, but what relationship hasn't?? Anyway we always talk about things and work our problems out. Lately he has been stressed about work and what is going on with me and how we both miss Alexis and he misses me, but he can't be around all the time and I am slowly getting used to that it just takes time. I mean I don't want him here all the time stuck up my ass and I don't want to be stuck up his ass either I don't agree with that. I know he has to work and be there for his dad and his family and when he can come in and sees me he does, and when he can call he does and we usually have good conversations for the most part. I would never ask him to chose btw me and his work and somedays he feels like he has to, but that isn't what I want him to do at all and I hope he knows that. Everyone is making him feel bad like where I have been sick he should be here and forget everything else like he has said he wishes he could be in 2 places at once, but that just doesn't happen and yes sometimes I wishes he was here more than other but I totally understand that he needs to work. So I am patient and I make that time special when I do get to see him. This Valentine's Day will be our 5 months together so I am looking forward to that and can't wait. He is the Romantic type so I am sure he will have something planned, but I am happy just spending time with him bc that doesn't happen a whole lot.

Alexis is great, she will be 27 months in 5 more days ahhh that is crazy. She is growing so fast and she has been in Sussex bc I have been too sick to take care of her right now so that makes me feel bad but I had no choice since she has been there I have been back to the hospital twice already. So it was a good idea that PJ convinced me to let her go there. I am going to be able to see her this weekend and I can't wait! I miss her and I know she misses me. She misses the kids at Daycare as well bc she tells me and I can't wait for her to be able to go back there I am sure they miss her too who wouldn't?? She is a sweet, caring, loving child I am proud of her everyday. Potty training may be a little harder than I anticipated but we will get there when she is ready.

Well I should go back to sleep now or wait for Mr. Golding to call me but I will keep you all updated as the time goes by.

G2G Bye!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

NYE 2008

Hey guys,

I had the most amazing, phemonial New Years Eve this year... I spent it with Alexis and PJ and couldn't have asked for a better time. He took Alexis and I to fireworks and bought her a bag of chips to watch them with and she sat on his lap, after that we left came back here and ate together and watched a couple movies and then Alexis went to bed. PJ and I cuddled together after Alexis had gone to sleep it was just a really good night.

I love going to sleep beside him, and then waking up beside him in the morning it is the best feeling ever:) Alexis usually comes in 1st thing in the morning and this time she didnt though PJ went in to say good morning to her and she was just sitting there all nice and quiet, untill she saw him and then she came in to find me.

He left for work and Alexis cried and made him feel bad but there is work that has to be done and he said he has to take care of Alexis and I he is so sweet and good at what he does. Anyway he will be back this evening sometime to see me and Alexis.

Anyway it was really just the perfect night with him and Alexis and I really hope there is lots more to come. I love him and Alexis with all my heart and they are my everything.

I will update more as I can my break is almost over with and then it will be back to school, and Alexis will be back to daycare and things will be hectic again, but that is ok because I love my life I really do.

G2G Bye!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

It's me I am back...

Hey guys,

It's been a while but sooooo many new changes have taken place and I will tell you all about them...

Lets see where am I going to start, I have a boyfriend as of September 14, 2008 he is great his name is Patrick Joseph Golding aka PJ. He treats Alexis like she is his and treats me like a queen and it is truely an awesome feeling, he tries so hard to please me and I don't know why. We met on July 6th, and I was taking pics being me and all going camera happy mom was moving house and he showed up there, well I actually went with his dad to go pick him up from work. He talked to me to put me to the test to see if I was stuck up and as we all know I am not so that went over well. Anyway I thought he was hot and he liked me too, but he has liked me since I was pregnant with Alexis I just had no idea and I was with Jon and things were good so I thought... anyway that is how we met and then I added him to facebook and he messaged me and we went from there and started hanging out and just having fun and then he asked me out I said no a hundred times, but he is a guy and didn't give up and well finally I thought well maybe I should give him a chance and I am glad I did.

Alexis is 25 months old now and is doing wonderful, she is in daycare full time and loves it she can do so many new things now. She can talk in sentences, tells me when she wants to eat, drink, sleep almost anything and she tells me what she is eating and talks alot more it is great having a 2 year old is wonderful! Her Bday went perfect almost a few mishabs but all in all not bad she had a fun time and I am glad she did. PJ did more than enough for her party and she got alot of presents and she loves them all.

School is going great for me I love it so much and doing really good in it and my instructor is awesome he takes the time to listen to us as the students and tries to make us understand what he is teaching anyway he can. I am making really good marks and moving right along and getting everything passed in early it is great!

As for everyone else they are great I talk to my friends when I can and see them when I can but for any one of them that is reading this I miss you all!!! The family is all good and we are loving the new house it is awesome and lots of room for everyone:) I am so glad that I got to help build something so wonderful and pleasant to be in.

I plan on moving after Christmas to either west side or Grand Bay area. I miss Sussex and that is such a nice area and reminds me of home, and on the plus side PJ lives there with his dad. It would make things so much easier to see him because he is quite busy lately so it seems and he tries to see me but never can because, there is always something to be done with his company. So I am trying to make life easier on the both of us even though I miss him like crazy. I would never make things hard on him by making him feel bad I just try not to think about it when he is not here with Alexis and I.

Jon and I are trying to figure out what is best for Alexis and get along and make plans to help her. We came up with that I have her during the week, and one weekend per month, and he has her the other three weekends so we are trying that arrangement and see how it goes. As for Christmas I will have her up to Christmas night and then he will be getting her for a few days after that unless something comes up with my family, and I want to take her with me. So that is all the plans as of right now.

Anyway that is the news and how things are with me as of right now. I am going to try to update more if I can things are just really busy and hectic right now.

G2G Bye!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Update on my life...

Hey guys,

I decided to write to let you all know how I have been doing well me and my family that is. Life really couldn't be better it has taken me a long time to get to where I am at but I am doing it.

Lets see where to start school is awesome I have been doing really well with it this time around. I made 49/50 on my first test and 67/70 on my second test so those marks in my opinion are great! I really enjoy school this time around I have met good ppl and we all help each other. I am really happy and have a good head on my shoulders and Alexis has been awesome.

Talking about Alexis, she is great I love that little girl so much and anyone I meet falls in love with her too it helps it really does. Alexis has her moments not days because that isn't always true but she does have her moments and when that happens I deal with them as best as I can, sometimes I lose my patience but I do try not too with her. She is now 21 months old now and busy as ever she keeps me busy that is for sure I tell ppl that is my "lil' hurricane" I mean she can literally turn my place upside down, but that is ok I don't mind.

I have found there is not enough hours in a day anymore but that is ok because me going back to school is the best thing I could have done I do know that. I am looking into buying a car and having no luck with that yet but that is ok because I know I will find one. Oh yeah I GOT MY LICENSE!!!! Sorry I am just really excited it took me 7 years but I finally got them. I do have to say thanks to Matt and anyone else who encouraged me and always told me I could do it. Thanks so much you all!!!! I love driving and having fun with just me and my little girl it really is awesome and if anyone deserved their license it was me not to sound concieted but it is true.

Anyway I don't want to be on here all night I have a litte girl to play with:) I feel more lucky to have her than anyone will ever know. Oh just before I go the 3 of us seem back to being ok again and talking and dicussing things about Alexis the way it should be. I do have to go but I will try to update when I can.

G2G Bye!!

Monday, July 7, 2008

Friends are they or not???...

Hey guys,

I am writing today to take my fusterations out I don't know where to begin I am so angry, hurt, betrayed, stress... the list could go on forever right now I think. I just don't get one thing why would friends say shit and then pretend to be your friend I guess I won't ever get that... Anyway that is just driving me crazy so I had to get it off my chest.

On with the next thing Jon Alexis father I don't know what is up with him and why he stresses me out I am in school now doing amazingly well loving it and here he and Tami must be jealous and wanting me to fail by stressing me out well let me tell you that isn't going to happen because all these things will just make stronger and make me want to succeed and that is exactly what I am going to do. He tells ppl I need to grow up I think he has it the other way around I did my growing up he is the one that doesn't talk to me when it comes to our daughter so what else am I supposed to do it isn't like I tried bc I did.

School is going awesome I love it I like dropping Alexis off for the 4 hours and then picking her up again with her big Hiiiii Mom Mom Mom!!!!! I just love that and look forward to that bc I know she had a good day and yet she is still happy to see me just as much I am happy to see her and can't wait to go get her after school everyday. I am already done my 1st module and starting my 2nd one today and can't wait. I really love school this time around unlike last time when I think honestly I wasn't ready yet so things are going better this time already.

Alexis is awesome as always and is the love of my life that little girl means everything to me and without her I don't know what I would do she keeps me going, keeps me feeling young and free and gives me the engry to keep up with her she is a normal, active 21 month old ful of energy and always ready to go. I wouldn't have things any other way I love my life the way it is and everything has been going good. I am living my life the way I should have lived it before and loving every minute of it as well.

Anyway I got to be going I need to get ready for school I am running off of only 4 hours of sleep because of everything but I will write again when I can. I will be going to PEI leaving Wednesday either before school or after school and will be back on Sunday I can't wait for everyone to see Lexie again it will be a fun time.

G2G Bye!

Friday, June 27, 2008

Good times...

Hey guys,

I have so much new things to write about it because I havn't updated in a long while I have been just so busy lately...

Lets see where do I begin, well for starters I am now 23 as of June 20th. I had an amazing birthday with my friends we all had a blast I think. Matt has a wicked stereo system and we had fire works they were my favorite and we had food and a fire and just some good laughs it was a blast and I looked at the ppl and said "same time next year?" lol! My friend Matt has his 4 wheeler here and I got to drive it and I took Lisa on it with me and well... we almost tipped it but only the one time and we didn't actually tip it and we had alot of fun that night. The next morning when Lisa and I were cleaning up from my bday bash we were carrying a table back from the firepit and well Lisa tripped I asked her what she tipped on and she goes "umm a hill lmao" It was funny and I love being in the country. I couldn't have asked for a better bday even if I wanted to it was perfect in everyway.

Alexis is 20 months old now so hard to believe, and actually she is closer to 21 months old... which means 3 more months and my little girl will be 2 years old! She is getting so big and she is so smart and I love her to peices I really do she is my everything and I want to give her the world if I could. I start school on wednesday and I am looking forward to that, I am doing it for Alexis I want to give her a good life and I know I can't with the way I am living now, but that will soon change and Alexis will have an awesome life I will see to it!

My brother came home for a day and I had the best visit with him I actually got to spend time with him which never happens and seeing him was great. I never really got along with my brother and it took me years to find out why... but now I think things are ok between us and I gave him a beautiful neice just like he gave me 2 handsome little nephews who I love to death. Saying goodbye to the 2 of them was harder than usual this time I don't know why that is but it just was. I know the boys are out west with James(my brother) and they always have fun out there he does alot of things with them throughout the summer which I think is great for them and they always have a fun time with their dad and his new wife(their stepmom Yumi). I am hoping I will get to see the 4 of them in August when they come back I am not sure though because I will have school and not sure if I can fit that in with my schedule, but I am going to try.

I sprained my ankle a few days ago it is still sore, but at least I can walk on it now which before it hurt like hell and it was hard to get around I think I almost broke it which wouldn't have been good... considering I need to walk Alexis to Kelly's which will take me 2 hours there and back and then I need to do the same thing after school as well. I know it will all be worth in the end though. Yesterday I was pretty sick and I have to get my wisdom teeth pulled out next saturday almost a week away I have never had any of my teeth pulled and I am afraid of it hurting but hopefully it won't be too bad I hope anyway. I am better today and drugs are always good lol.

The new house has been coming along great, we are getting alot accomplished on it and I can't wait for the moving day. I will miss my neighbours here they are awesome but it will be nice to come home every weekend to a big house where Lexie has room to run and play and just be herself. Matt has been a big help with the house and mom and Clarence appreciate everything ppl has done to help us with it! The end of the month was supposed to be the time we were moving but now I am not so sure about that still. I am thinking by the middle of July we will all be moved in and that will be great and I think mom and Clarence will be so much happier once it is completly finished and they are living there and worry free about things.

Anyway I do believe that is all I have to update as of right now. I am going to try to blog more because I know I was slacking sorry guys for that I will do my best. Right now I am going to go eat and check out facebook what can I say I am addicted lol. Talk to all of you later and for anyone that reads this take care and hug the ones you love and never leave something unsaid but you may never get the chance to say it to that person!

G2G Bye!