Hey guys,
Umm well where do I start? Lets see??? So many changes have taken place and they are not for the best that is for sure!!....
Lets see I am still in school, living in Saint John, my little girl is almost 3 and doing really good. She is still in daycare and loving it like every minute of it. Potty training Alexis has been challenging but we are finally getting somewhere with it. I still can't believe that Alexis will be 3 on October 10th.
The wonderful guy I was with... PJ well he didn't want to be with me I guess he has alot going on and a relationship is not what he needs to concentrate on he needs to get his life straighten out and then who knows what will happen after that bc I can honestly say I don't. I miss him I really do he was the one I loved and well still do and I think I always will. I am just heartbroken and crushed lately.
Well I really do not do well with changes and lately there has been more than enough and I am tired of it I really am.... there are changes with school, changes with my financial situation and yup things just keep getting worse instead of better and I wanted it to stop I really do... I want things to go back to the way things are and I really do I just want my old life back. I just want things right again and I want to be happy again!!!!
I moved about 2 weeks ago now and I like my location of my new place, but hate my apartment as it stands right now once the work gets done it won't be all that bad I hope...
Anyway that is all for now, I don't have net or anything like that right now so that makes things hard to update on this...
G2G Bye!!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Update as of Feb 5th
Hey guys,
Just thought I would write an update on how things are going with me and my family...
Well things with me have been up and down I have been sick for quite awhile and no one knows why yet... they have done tons of tests and I am sure there are more to come. PJ has been a great support team hes been there with me through it all, held me when they were jabbing me with needles, has tears in his eyes when they were making me scream from the pain, wishing he could take it all away. I am hoping they will find out soon what is wrong with me.
PJ and I have had our disagreements, but what relationship hasn't?? Anyway we always talk about things and work our problems out. Lately he has been stressed about work and what is going on with me and how we both miss Alexis and he misses me, but he can't be around all the time and I am slowly getting used to that it just takes time. I mean I don't want him here all the time stuck up my ass and I don't want to be stuck up his ass either I don't agree with that. I know he has to work and be there for his dad and his family and when he can come in and sees me he does, and when he can call he does and we usually have good conversations for the most part. I would never ask him to chose btw me and his work and somedays he feels like he has to, but that isn't what I want him to do at all and I hope he knows that. Everyone is making him feel bad like where I have been sick he should be here and forget everything else like he has said he wishes he could be in 2 places at once, but that just doesn't happen and yes sometimes I wishes he was here more than other but I totally understand that he needs to work. So I am patient and I make that time special when I do get to see him. This Valentine's Day will be our 5 months together so I am looking forward to that and can't wait. He is the Romantic type so I am sure he will have something planned, but I am happy just spending time with him bc that doesn't happen a whole lot.
Alexis is great, she will be 27 months in 5 more days ahhh that is crazy. She is growing so fast and she has been in Sussex bc I have been too sick to take care of her right now so that makes me feel bad but I had no choice since she has been there I have been back to the hospital twice already. So it was a good idea that PJ convinced me to let her go there. I am going to be able to see her this weekend and I can't wait! I miss her and I know she misses me. She misses the kids at Daycare as well bc she tells me and I can't wait for her to be able to go back there I am sure they miss her too who wouldn't?? She is a sweet, caring, loving child I am proud of her everyday. Potty training may be a little harder than I anticipated but we will get there when she is ready.
Well I should go back to sleep now or wait for Mr. Golding to call me but I will keep you all updated as the time goes by.
G2G Bye!
Just thought I would write an update on how things are going with me and my family...
Well things with me have been up and down I have been sick for quite awhile and no one knows why yet... they have done tons of tests and I am sure there are more to come. PJ has been a great support team hes been there with me through it all, held me when they were jabbing me with needles, has tears in his eyes when they were making me scream from the pain, wishing he could take it all away. I am hoping they will find out soon what is wrong with me.
PJ and I have had our disagreements, but what relationship hasn't?? Anyway we always talk about things and work our problems out. Lately he has been stressed about work and what is going on with me and how we both miss Alexis and he misses me, but he can't be around all the time and I am slowly getting used to that it just takes time. I mean I don't want him here all the time stuck up my ass and I don't want to be stuck up his ass either I don't agree with that. I know he has to work and be there for his dad and his family and when he can come in and sees me he does, and when he can call he does and we usually have good conversations for the most part. I would never ask him to chose btw me and his work and somedays he feels like he has to, but that isn't what I want him to do at all and I hope he knows that. Everyone is making him feel bad like where I have been sick he should be here and forget everything else like he has said he wishes he could be in 2 places at once, but that just doesn't happen and yes sometimes I wishes he was here more than other but I totally understand that he needs to work. So I am patient and I make that time special when I do get to see him. This Valentine's Day will be our 5 months together so I am looking forward to that and can't wait. He is the Romantic type so I am sure he will have something planned, but I am happy just spending time with him bc that doesn't happen a whole lot.
Alexis is great, she will be 27 months in 5 more days ahhh that is crazy. She is growing so fast and she has been in Sussex bc I have been too sick to take care of her right now so that makes me feel bad but I had no choice since she has been there I have been back to the hospital twice already. So it was a good idea that PJ convinced me to let her go there. I am going to be able to see her this weekend and I can't wait! I miss her and I know she misses me. She misses the kids at Daycare as well bc she tells me and I can't wait for her to be able to go back there I am sure they miss her too who wouldn't?? She is a sweet, caring, loving child I am proud of her everyday. Potty training may be a little harder than I anticipated but we will get there when she is ready.
Well I should go back to sleep now or wait for Mr. Golding to call me but I will keep you all updated as the time goes by.
G2G Bye!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
NYE 2008
Hey guys,
I had the most amazing, phemonial New Years Eve this year... I spent it with Alexis and PJ and couldn't have asked for a better time. He took Alexis and I to fireworks and bought her a bag of chips to watch them with and she sat on his lap, after that we left came back here and ate together and watched a couple movies and then Alexis went to bed. PJ and I cuddled together after Alexis had gone to sleep it was just a really good night.
I love going to sleep beside him, and then waking up beside him in the morning it is the best feeling ever:) Alexis usually comes in 1st thing in the morning and this time she didnt though PJ went in to say good morning to her and she was just sitting there all nice and quiet, untill she saw him and then she came in to find me.
He left for work and Alexis cried and made him feel bad but there is work that has to be done and he said he has to take care of Alexis and I he is so sweet and good at what he does. Anyway he will be back this evening sometime to see me and Alexis.
Anyway it was really just the perfect night with him and Alexis and I really hope there is lots more to come. I love him and Alexis with all my heart and they are my everything.
I will update more as I can my break is almost over with and then it will be back to school, and Alexis will be back to daycare and things will be hectic again, but that is ok because I love my life I really do.
G2G Bye!
I had the most amazing, phemonial New Years Eve this year... I spent it with Alexis and PJ and couldn't have asked for a better time. He took Alexis and I to fireworks and bought her a bag of chips to watch them with and she sat on his lap, after that we left came back here and ate together and watched a couple movies and then Alexis went to bed. PJ and I cuddled together after Alexis had gone to sleep it was just a really good night.
I love going to sleep beside him, and then waking up beside him in the morning it is the best feeling ever:) Alexis usually comes in 1st thing in the morning and this time she didnt though PJ went in to say good morning to her and she was just sitting there all nice and quiet, untill she saw him and then she came in to find me.
He left for work and Alexis cried and made him feel bad but there is work that has to be done and he said he has to take care of Alexis and I he is so sweet and good at what he does. Anyway he will be back this evening sometime to see me and Alexis.
Anyway it was really just the perfect night with him and Alexis and I really hope there is lots more to come. I love him and Alexis with all my heart and they are my everything.
I will update more as I can my break is almost over with and then it will be back to school, and Alexis will be back to daycare and things will be hectic again, but that is ok because I love my life I really do.
G2G Bye!
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